Hmmmm..

Red jumpsuit lyrics...

Damn regret, I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me 'cause I'm refined.

Tried so hard to not have regrets in my life. But this past year i let myself make too many mistakes and now have regrets i wish i could take back. I hate myself for letting these things happen but I take full responsibility for them and only have myself to blame.

It always seems like the end of the world when you make one, and it consumes your everyday thoughts. But after awhile those feelings and memories start to fade. This can be good, but it can also be bad. I wish i could let go and live my life without regrets, but im only human. Just wish i didnt lose a few people close to me these past few days. I hate that ive hurt them and couldnt give them what they wanted. I really wish i could fix everything and give people what they want but i would be miserable myself, so i guess deep down i know im worth something..just trying to figure out what it is.

When i have let myself do things i really think it through, even if they arent the best choices. People can judge me all they want, but if you want to play with morals..my sins are no worse than yours..so stop trying to be holier than thou.

According to dictionary.com the word USED means: to take unfair advantage of; exploit.

I guess you could say this word rules my life. Everyone tells me how much they love me and blah blah..but i realized its only because i let people walk all over me and use me all they want because i have no spine and cant stand up for myself. And when I do, it just gets ignored and nothing changes. So i see no point in changing things, just keep letting myself be used and maybe one day i will be the one who is getting a ride somewhere or "occupying" my room, to say the least. Just keep looking forward to those days, while distracting myself with the things i can change.