quitters never win.

So today i realized something. Growing up, if something wasn't going the way it should have been or you just couldn't handle it, we were taught to give up. My mom gives up if it isn't convenient for her. She gave up on her family, and herself. She gave up on her kids. She gave up on alot of things because she didn't want to deal with them. The dog that i do have left was barking and i told her to stop, my mom then said why don't we just get rid of her. That was my aha moment as Oprah would say. She took my dog from me because she got lazy, she doesn't understand commitment to an animal or anything for that matter, except for her damn books.

Thinking back on my life, there have been many times when things got hard, and her answer was to give up. My geometry class i wasn't doing so well in, she told me to quit. I didn't because i don't agree with giving up when times get hard. Even though i ended up with a D, i still persevered and the lesson was more valuable than some grade. When my friends don't come through for me, she tells me to drop them, they will never change. i never have. I believe in second, third, and even fourth chances for everybody, even if they've screwed me over. When i was learning how to drive and wasn't driving the way she thought was correct, she would make me stop. Its kind of funny considering shes the one who drove through an apartment, hit a fence in the road, drives over medians, and any thing she can.

She runs from her problems. Her family is non existent to her because she just doesn't want to deal with conflict. She chooses to hear half of what her "precious" pastor talks about in church, but ignores the other half because she doesn't want to hear it. I have gone through things that would have killed my mom, but i never have given up. Sometimes i want to quit and run away, but i know that if i don't face things head on, they wont go away so i have to deal with it in order to live my life.

I had this friend that stopped smoking, but the next time i saw him he was at it again. I told him i thought he had quit, and his response was "quitters never win" in his context it was wrong, but for what I'm talking about it makes so much sense. If you want to win, you cant quit. The Nickelback lyrics " whats worth the prize is always worth the fight" is dead on. Make fun, but you know those words are the truth.