Gotta get the courage to just do it. So many things that im scared of doing and saying to people, but its time to change that. Im sick of being screwed over by "friends" and even "family" for that matter. Sick of hiding my feelings for him. Being made to feel guilty for doing nothing wrong because im to much of a pansy to stick up for myself. Welllll ive said it before but this time i gotta change all of it, because life is to damn short to let people walk all over you. Shits already gone down with people and its about to get a whole lot worse.
People think they can lie, but never realize that to keep something hidden you just gotta keep lying and eventually you wont remember what story you told to who and guess what...those lies are starting to come undone so its go time baby! ive tried before but its been turned around to make me look like the one who should feel bad..and its worked, but no more. I know i dont deserve this shit anymore, the put downs and the dumbass drama ive been put me through. ITS OVERRRR!!!
People always judge and put others down to make themselves feel better. but the funny thing is, those are the people who have the most to hide..affairs..drugs..secret lives that they think others are oblivous to..buttt guess what..people know your secrets..so ya better be careful about judging others...like ben folds says It seems to me if you can't trust You can't be trusted. I guess I don’t really know much though because after all im just a “young adult” and im immature..but that’s okay because id rather be me..than a grown up child.
SoOoO basically im done with all the unnecessary drama that ive been put through by people who arent worth my energy and time. There are people who actually care and they are the ones who I want to be around because they make my life wayyy better. Soo HASTA LA VISTA to the dumb people and drama in my life…im D O N E!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Friends
So at this time it basically seems hopeless..but i know its not...tho it looks like it will never happen..it will eventually! The catch..no matter how much i keep telling myself and friends this..i still cannot really believe it myself.
Its almost the 19th birthday..yet my life really feels no different from any of my previous birthdays. Lately ive gotten close to some really awesome people..how did i make it through all these years without them? I dont know! lol but ive been able to let them in ..which was hard for me..but i am sooo glad that i have. Spending basically every weekend for the past month or so with them has been some of the best times ive ever had. There have been so many firsts with you guys! So i guess this birthday as well as everyday of my life is becoming different than im used to and im loving every minute of it. so thank you to the four of ya guys for showing me life will be okay! And of course to all of my amazing other friends and few and I mean few family members!!
Theres this chica..you know who you are :) i dont think ive ever had so much in common with anyone like the two of us! minus the liking kids thing! hahaha no homo..butttt its like we were made for eachother hehe!!...everything that i have gone through youve been there too and its so awesome to have you as my friend..and fellow wolfpack member ;) even though we havent known each other that long..it feels like i have..and i luv that!! soooo i jus wanted to say im hella glad we met and i can tell this is gunna be a really good friendship!
Guys will come and go..or in my case they will just go..but real friends are forever!! Lately i have been the happiest i have ever been..but at the same time the most irritated because letting go of people, guys, and past regrets hasnt been easy..but since i have..i have been way happier!
I started this off by saying that i basically feel hopeless..and i guess i still do..but life has a way of changing in a matter of seconds..so who knows whats gunna go on tomorrow or the day after that.. but i guess this is a thank you to those people in my life who are helping keep me sane! Nowwww we jus needa parttyyy!!! hehe
Its almost the 19th birthday..yet my life really feels no different from any of my previous birthdays. Lately ive gotten close to some really awesome people..how did i make it through all these years without them? I dont know! lol but ive been able to let them in ..which was hard for me..but i am sooo glad that i have. Spending basically every weekend for the past month or so with them has been some of the best times ive ever had. There have been so many firsts with you guys! So i guess this birthday as well as everyday of my life is becoming different than im used to and im loving every minute of it. so thank you to the four of ya guys for showing me life will be okay! And of course to all of my amazing other friends and few and I mean few family members!!
Theres this chica..you know who you are :) i dont think ive ever had so much in common with anyone like the two of us! minus the liking kids thing! hahaha no homo..butttt its like we were made for eachother hehe!!...everything that i have gone through youve been there too and its so awesome to have you as my friend..and fellow wolfpack member ;) even though we havent known each other that long..it feels like i have..and i luv that!! soooo i jus wanted to say im hella glad we met and i can tell this is gunna be a really good friendship!
Guys will come and go..or in my case they will just go..but real friends are forever!! Lately i have been the happiest i have ever been..but at the same time the most irritated because letting go of people, guys, and past regrets hasnt been easy..but since i have..i have been way happier!
I started this off by saying that i basically feel hopeless..and i guess i still do..but life has a way of changing in a matter of seconds..so who knows whats gunna go on tomorrow or the day after that.. but i guess this is a thank you to those people in my life who are helping keep me sane! Nowwww we jus needa parttyyy!!! hehe
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