fake.

According to the dictionary the word fake means: imposter, a person who makes deceitful pretenses.

If only it could capture the emotions that a fake person brings to those they surround. Everyday we encounter many people in our lives and most of the time we do not even know who these people are, yet we think we do. We fall victim to their lies, and facades they present because we want to believe in genuine kindness.

My parents and family members are the worse excuse for christians i have ever seen in my life. They hate.judge.abuse.hurt.gossip.slander.degrade.reject. everyone around them if they do not believe and agree with every word that flows out of their hypocritical mouths. They are quick to judge, and push their beliefs on others, but cant take a minute to hear what others believe. Close mindedness is to me, the worst thing that can happen to a person. How someone can live life only seeing one side of everything and being bitter towards everyone and everything blows my mind.

If we are all in college, why are we acting like jr. highers and highschoolers with our bullshit drama? Hurting whoever we can because we are not comfortable with ourselves is the dumbest thing we can do. People who are trying to "defend" others, are only trying to prove their masculinity and cause more drama, not really trying to protect others. if you have to tear others down to build yourself up, i feel so sorry for you. If we dont grow up and learn to act like the adults that we are, trouble is headed our way like a speeding train.

I am so sick of being the one holding everyone up and being the strong one. Everyone has problems, and some are serious..but others are miniscule like boys and looks. I have to walk around with a huge secret inside because people arent strong enough to handle it, and it would crash their worlds. But has anyone thought of what its like for me to have to deal with this and think about it every damn day of my life. Who worries about how i am handlng it? im told all the time im strong..but i dont want to be. I want to cry and ask for help. I have people who support me, but i need a third party psychologist who can really help me sort through all these feelings. and having to deal with dumb shit everyday is pushing me farther and farther to the edge.

I need to be away from everything that brings me down.