so much goin on lately its crazy. everyone i know is dealing with hard stuff and it really bites. Guys..crazy family..bad friends..you name it..my friends and I are dealing with. I guess its just a time in our lives where things have to change and not necessarily for the good.
They say that in order to be happy we have to endure pain, because without it, we wouldnt know what happiness is. This is easier said than lived. No one wants to have to go through pain and tragedy in their life, but no matter who you are, rich or poor, you will face hard times. We need to learn to expect it and brace ourselves instead of running and hiding because no matter how hard we try, we cannot get away from it.
Winston Churchill once said, "if your going through hell, keep going." Because if we allow our misery to consume our lives, it will only bring us down. When it seems like your life is spiraling down and you are failing, you cant stop because you will be stuck..and no one wants to be stuck in hell, therefore we must keep marching on until we see the light.
Happiness is a choice that we must make every morning when we wake up. If you want to be happy, then dont let anything stop you. We have to choose to feel happy, we cannot expect it. "When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us." One of my favorite Helen Keller quotes reminds me that what we think will make us happy, might in fact be completly wrong and if we stop focusing on what went wrong, our eyes then will be open to lots of new possibilites, but we have to stop focusing on the negative.
The other day I was in a store with one of my bests and found a card that read, "fall in love or fall in hate. get inspired or get depressed. ace a test or flunk a class. make babies or make art. speak the truth or lie and cheat. dance on tables or sit in the corner. life is divine chaos. embrace it. forgive yourself. breathe. enjoy the ride." This spoke to me like i couldnt believe. I started realizing that I have to stop being scared of being hurt, scared of letting people in, and scared of telling my true feelings. I have to choose to make my life the way i want, and i will not sit around any longer waiting for my life to start. I am in control of it, i must choose to enjoy it and not let dumb things like guys and backstabbers get in my way. We only have one life and i dont want to look back on mine and regret that i didnt do more.
So from this moment on, i REFUSE to let myself get depressed. People will always hurt me and things will not always go the way i want, but i am learning to turn the negative into someting positive because worrying is an emotion that does me no good. I am learning that life is just a game of choices and i am choosing happiness.
